Self-hatred

The conscious creation of Karma (the mental thoughts and physical actions of an individual that have consequences for this life as well as future lives through reincarnation) begins the moment you become aware of the influence your thoughts, words, and actions have on yourself and others. Your self-awareness can be enhanced through activities such as taking lessons on spirituality and consciousness, reading books, and more.

From a young age, we experience how others react to our words and actions. At some point, most people become aware that before they say or do something, they think it through first. For example, you might think, “When will the neighbors finally stop making so much noise?” After some deliberation, you gather the courage to knock on their door and politely ask them to lower the volume. If the noise continues despite your request, you might then decide to involve the authorities.

We learn and experience that our thoughts, words, and actions have only two types of effects on ourselves and others: creating harmony or disharmony within and around us.

If we do not love ourselves as we are at any given moment, we create disharmony within ourselves, which leads to self-hatred. We respond to this self-hatred with thoughts, emotions, and actions that foster an increasingly self-destructive lifestyle.

This lifestyle not only causes self-damage but also harms those around us, magnifying the disharmony within and around us.

From the moment we become aware of the influence of our thoughts and actions, we bear full responsibility for them. Every time we consciously create and sustain disharmonious thoughts, we see the consequences reflected in our relationship with ourselves and others. We will also experience these results in our next incarnation.

When you are unaware of the influence of your thoughts, words, and actions, they do not count karmically. You are not conscious of the possible consequences of a particular thought or deed. Even self-destruction stemming from ignorance is not considered karmic. You live under the illusion that no one can hear, see, or feel your thoughts. You believe they have no effect on yourself or others. You think, “No one can hear or see my thoughts, so they don’t influence others.” But this is a grave misunderstanding! Thoughts are energy, and energy always has an impact.

Sources of Self-Hatred

The roots of self-hatred lie in our upbringing and education. Both are often based on ignoring the self, our will, and our needs.

On one hand, our thoughts, needs, and emotions are denied, while external needs, thoughts, and emotions are imposed upon us. The needs, thoughts, and emotions of others take precedence, forming one of the fundamental principles of common forms of education and upbringing.

The outcomes of such upbringing and education may be efficient for the educator or teacher but are highly damaging and disastrous for the one being raised or educated.

  • You are taught not to trust yourself—physically, emotionally, or mentally.

  • You are taught to obey the will, beliefs, opinions, and thought patterns of others.

  • You are taught to see everyone else as an authority or as a “know-it-all.”

  • You are taught to ignore your will, needs, intuition, and sometimes even your conscience.

  • You are taught to diminish and underestimate yourself.

  • You are taught that your ability to be accepted by family, school, or society depends directly on your capacity to adapt to others’ expectations and will. The more you adapt to others’ needs and will, the more loved, accepted, and rewarded you are. If you don’t comply, you are punished physically, mentally, emotionally, and/or socially.

Each time you obey one or more of these points, you hate yourself a little more. All of these principles directly oppose human energy. They destroy the nature of humanity. By nature, humans are creators, not made to obey but to act, explore, learn, and experience. Humans want to express themselves without being hindered or restricted by others.

You hate yourself when you listen to elders, teachers, partners, etc., and conform to the demands they place on you. Most people suffer from chronic “resistance inflammation,” showing resistance to almost everything and everyone 24/7. This resistance affects physical, mental, and emotional health. It has become so habitual that we barely feel or are aware of it anymore.

When Resistance is Justified

Sometimes, resistance is justified—for example, opposing excessive income taxes or defending your right to bodily autonomy. However, constant resistance is highly damaging. It leads most people to hate and despise themselves so much that they adopt a continuous self-destructive way of living.

This harmful lifestyle consists of two components:

  1. Accepting almost everything that is bad for you—unhealthy food, alcohol, smoking, drugs, excessive screen time, insufficient sleep, etc.

  2. Resisting almost everything that is good for you—exercise, yoga, meditation, healthy eating, adequate sleep, etc. These provoke resistance. You can spend hours behind a screen, but you feel irritated or resistant when asked to move, train, or go to bed on time.

You show the greatest resistance to the people who love you the most, who support you, who point out your weaknesses, and who truly care for you.

An Upside-Down World

We live in an upside-down world. We accept almost everything that harms us. This is the greatest obstacle we all face: self-hatred. As long as you do not love yourself, you misuse your life energy and create disharmony within and around you.

Ask Yourself the Following Questions:

  • Am I living the life I want to live? If not, why am I not changing my way of living?

  • Does the way I live increase my self-hatred, or does it enhance my self-love and self-appreciation?

  • What in my life causes my self-hatred, and what creates and amplifies my self-love?

  • What can I do to be proud of myself?

  • Who in my social network can help and inspire me on my path toward self-love and harmony?